Monday, June 28, 2010

Day 4.


For fun last Thursday, a dear friend and I went to get pedicures. I've never had flowers drawn on my toes before, but I figured, what the heck! With all the "stirrup time" I have coming up, might as well have something that's uniquely me!

The Technical: The first injection last night went just fine. I did 300 units of Menopur on the right. Tonight will be 225. Dr. Awadalla has me on a seesaw pattern, so I'll continue to alternate those doses as well as alternating sides/sites. I had a small injection site reaction but it wasn't too bad, just some heat and redness. I was amazed how quickly my body responded and I've been feeling twinges all day. They don't hurt - they just let me know the medicine is revving up my ovaries.

The Emotional: I'm feeling good today. I've been thinking about a lot of different things. My old pastor (from New Orleans) posted this verse on his Facebook status this morning:

“Don't put your confidence in powerful people; there is no help for you there. When their breathing stops, they return to the earth, and in a moment all their plans come to an end. But happy are those who have God as their helper, whose hope is in the LORD their God. He is the one who made heaven and earth, the sea,... and everything in them. He is the one who keeps every promise forever.” (Psalm 146:3-6 OYB)


This really reminded me that although having people praying for us is vital, our hope has to be in God, not in somehow earning his favor. I know we all tend to think that if we do everything right, God will bless us. It doesn't work that way. I think I tend to do this so that I feel like I have some control over the outcome. But, I don't have any control. It's all in His hands. I still don't understand how God decides who gets to be pregnant and who gets to keep their babies. I never will. But, I know the One Who does. That has to be enough.

A little happy that Michael and Jason brought home for me yesterday! I am so blessed...

3 comments:

  1. Glad the injection wasn't too horrible....and you are right, you have lots and lots of people praying for you!!!!

    Are you just taking menopur? No bravelle/follistim/gonal f? I wish I wasn't too old (and scatterbrained) to go back to school...there are so many jobs I find fascinating now and I always compare all the different IVF protocols.

    Yes...my REs love me. Not!
    xoxoxo

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  2. Thanks Holly and Lori :)
    Just taking Menopur and later Ganirelix. I have often contemplated going back to school and becoming an RE (I'm only half serious... maybe). It just seems like there's so much more that will be discovered to help couples. And I don't want others to go through all the stuff we've been through :)

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